With Law School over, and the Bar near. Me and the Hubs are anticipating a move in the next few months. It’s a move I am really looking forward to.
2 years ago, I moved from Central, to Northern KY near the Ohio river and Cincinnati. And though I was content in the area I was excited to move to be with my future hubby and all of my friends were moving to the area as well. I thought it would be cool to move to a Big City with bright lights and lots of things to do.
There is a lot of good in the area.
They have great parks.
The City is so pretty at night, especially at Christmas
There is a lot of charm around here.
Our favorite Italian Cuisine (I will miss this).
Personally, I think it would really be a great place to visit, for a short while. But the area is just not for me…. The people are not for me.. the traffic is not for me… the smog is not for me.
I NEVER realized Where my home was, until I left it. And there are some days where my heart ACHES for “home”…..or the feeling of “home” Ugh…and its surely aching right now. We are so close to leaving the area, and I’m just so ready to be gone, ready to close this chapter and move on. I have never felt so impatient in my life!!!
I’m ready to have friendly service in a restaurant again, sit down or drive thru. Nothing makes you crabbier than going through a drive thru and the person on the other end rudely yells “What do you want?!”… I’m ready to leave my house and not fear for my life in traffic… its horrendous… I’m ready to go out and not have to worry about somebody breaking into my car… (We have had our cars broken into 2 times, once at our own home, and once on my BIRTHDAY at the Zoo!!!) I’m ready to not have environmentally acquired asthma from all the dirty air and pollution..
My Heart aches for here.
And for her
And Fresh Air
I want to be back in KENTUCKY. Not the Tri-State.
I know this is a SUUUPER negative post. But it is just wearing on me, with just a few months to go, you think I could just hold it together. But just tonight I want to feel like I belong again somewhere, I want to feel that feeling of home. I want to feel cozy and safe and secure, and settled.
You know? Come to think of it that has probably been the hardest part of being a Law School Wife for me. We knew not long after Greg started school that the area wasn’t for us, that we were meant to be somewhere else, and We have just never been able to settle…. we have always just been ready to move… just counting down the days until Law school was over and we can go on and start life. And as much as I am ready to move on, if I could go back and do it again I would. Watching my husband meet his goals and dreams has been amazing for me. I WOULD do it again. I’m just having a crabby impatient moment.
I feel super guilty posting this because I am so fortunate, and I wouldn’t change a thing. Trust me, I know with all my heart and soul how fortunate I am. I have a great apt, I have food on the table every day. A husband who loves me, a Bangin family who would do anything for me….
But there is something to be said about being home…. cheesy and cliché as it is… Home is where the heart is.. And even though I don’t know where my heart is going to be just yet, I know in just a few short months we will be moving on, it will all have been worth it… and the Ache will be gone.